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Do You Believe In Soulmates?



"I'd rather have faith in something and be wrong than have faith in nothing at all." --- 10.5



I've been told there's no such thing as fate or destiny, only choices and ones own will. That people decide what happens and has the sole authority over their lives. But why do i believe that somehow a Higher Power exists over everything - that for each and every human being in this God-forsaken planet, there's a certain destination that he's surely headed for regardless of whether such person likes it or not. That we can neither diverge into another path nor create our own version of it. The fly people often tells me, our emotions are but a product of our minds and that we are the ones who create them. But i dare ask, what's the you or we that has such control. Is it a matter, a spirit, or a ludicrous illusion? How can something so small and insignificant as a human brain produce enslaving thoughts and emotions that cross oceans and soar the heavens; conceive of angels, pixies, demons, and ethereal realms yet in the end deem them unreal and in-existent. If our thoughts and emotions are unreal, does that make us unreal as well? If we and the things that we see around us are but a matrix of make believe, or if not all of them originated from a single microorganism, and that the intricacy of people's thoughts and emotions are nothing but coincidental accidents of years and years of the so-called natural cosmic evolution, how did they all came to be? You don't suppose that a single atom just sprang out of nowhere and created a world and universe filled with all sorts of things and creatures without any known cause - no Divine intervention of some sort!!! nothing at all!!!. I refuse to believe that the intricate designs in nature, the vivid colors, the seemingly perfect symmetry, and order of the simple things such as a leaf, a shell, the solar system, including the human body and how we as beings transform nothingness into concrete objects are mere coincidences. It being so mind-boggling makes you feel like walking in circles and that in itself proves there must be some uncaused cause who made it all.

And so for this reason i am making an attempt to justify such faith - I stand to believe that if you wish for something hard enough, they would in time come to you. If indeed my conviction is true, this message in a bottle would send a beacon to Heaven and direct all of these crazy thoughts to you.
Yet if ever i be wrong and that there really isn't a you and that instead out of longing to find someone to fill my emptiness , i came up with this ridiculous idea; i would not still think of this as a loss. For i can dare say, i had the heart to believe in something which others didn't. I believe this makes a difference because i was able to let out the burden of these unrequited thoughts of a made up you.
So here i write:
All these years i hated that i hadn't lived just because you were not around.
I hated this overly pathetic feeling of having to cry over someone that's not even real in the first place.
In my mind, you were my ever loyal companion; the all too real Caucasian boy whose eyes made me believe in the power of goodness.
When it rains and all i can see is a bleak and sad world you would smile at me and everything would be translucent again.
I could swear for a moment i could feel Heaven
And so my heart would tell me, i would be okay.
I could lay down all my imperfections and shortcomings to you in hundreds of ways but the pureness of your love erases and drowns them for all eternity.
You were my happiness and my missing piece, the one who carried me when i can no longer go on, my steadfast star.
When i refuse to believe in myself, you would be the one to believe instead.
You were the happy thoughts that constantly take me to Neverland.
There was never a day that I never thought of you
Did you ever wish for something so bad in your life that you almost lose yourself?......I did........ and i still do.
So please have this letter find you.

KIMIMELA



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